Crying out now

Thanks to Crying Out Now for posting “Frank the Tank is a Terrible Mother!” 

When Ellie emailed me to say she was going to put that post up on her website, I realized how long it had been since I had blogged. I celebrated a year of sobriety in August and it has been a wild year. Lots of soul searching and working the 12 steps. My husband was laid off and re-hired. I’m working full-time and raising a healthy little 18-month-old. And I am pregnant again and am finally done battling first trimester yuck. 

I am grateful every day for my sobriety. Even on the shitty days… but I have far less of those than I used to. I am getting used to showing up in my life and not evading every feeling with alcohol. Sobriety is making me a better mother, wife, employee, daughter, sister and friend. I feel like I’m getting to know myself for the first time in a long time. I’m way less afraid than I was a year ago when I started this blog. 

Thank you to those who visit here. I plan to start writing again. 


One thought on “Crying out now

  1. I hit a year this past July and it has been the most amazing ride. My life is remarkable, clear, free of all excess baggage and stress, and I am actually useful to others now. I took the 12 steps with an amazing sponsor and they are the only thing that has ever worked for me so I continue to follow them every day. My previous obsession with alcohol has been lifted and that I consider that a miracle. Due to work I have not been able to attend meetings very much, but I stay connected every day (which allows me to remain in my recovered state), and try to stay free and useful to others in all my affairs. When I think back to the stress, negativity and confusion I was causing all around me and to me it boggles my mind. It is amazing how the self can adapt to the craziest of situations. I hope to someday be able to share this gift with someone who needs it. Congratulations, and here’s to many more years of freedom!

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